I wanted to share with you some of the unique and special things I've
noticed about myself. As an Indigo, aged 27, I'm perhaps one of the
older ones. I suspect there are Indigos older than me, although
there may be so few that they go largely unnoticed.
I agree with you that the color Violet is very important in the Indigo's
aura. I have developed, perhaps, a Violet overlay as I've gotten older
in order to operate in the greater world better. Being an Indigo means
knowing and fully understanding the world around oneself, but not
necessarily buying into that world. The Violet overlay is a type of
filter or translator between the world and myself. It is also a tool I
use to focus my energies productively (as productivity is described by
the outside world).
I'd like to share with you some of the unique things that I attribute,
mostly, to my being Indigo, in no particular order:
- I have a strong feeling that there is a tract or grove I should
follow. When I'm off it, things don't feel right and strange things
happen. I have an extremely strong sense of when I'm off - the pull back to the track is practically
overpowering. When I'm on the tract, everything falls into place:
synchronicity occurs, coincidences abound, interactions and ideas
coincide and grow, etc. I used to think these things were strange when
they occurred, now I take them as a blessing because I'm reminded
there is a path for me I'm on that path, somewhere along its length.
- Similarly, a sense of purpose has been growing inside me that is so
unexpectedly strong. This sense is often tied into my resolve to do
something, which, too, can be extremely powerful. Similarly, I often
feel something like the weight of destiny or the weight of
inevitability--a power pulling me along toward some end I do not yet
- Often I have the feeling of being overwhelmed by emotions or thoughts
that seem foreign to my being. They are often ones that I wouldn't have
or haven't had (because of my age, gender, or place in life), but they
are nevertheless strong and consuming. It is just recently that I've
come to suspect these feelings are senses I'm picking up from people
around me. This I'm starting to explore and understand in my own way.
- It has always been extremely easy to form a very vivid image in my
mind. In school when we did visualization experiences, I always formed
a thorough image very quickly and it was one I could easily step into
and manipulate in my mind.
- I find it relaxing (or releasing) to listen to the same song or
songs over and over again, for hours on end for hours even. This
seems to distract or assuage me enough so that my mind can concentrate
fully on a project or work. A modicum of familiar noise (such as
indistinct voices) does the same, but the same song over and over is
very meditative and freeing for my thoughts.
- In regards to Indigos being misunderstood, suspected, and a fly in
everyone's ointment, I've found Plato's Apology to be quite
comforting. (Ed. Note- This is a book of Plato's Apology to the
- I seem to be inexorably drawn to things that would improve my health
and safety. For instance, I've been drawn in a number of ways toward
low-fat, high-fiber, semi-vegetarian cooking, the kinds of food that now
we're finding seem to best allow one to lead a long, healthy life. This
focus on my health and safety, from where I live and work to what I eat
and do, seems to be unconscious to me, but very real in my
life all the same.
- I'm working hard to overcome a deep fear and suspicion of ghosts and
spirits. Because of my strong visualization skills, and expectations
to see gore, I've been afraid
that I may cause myself to envision a fright if I were open to ghosts
and spirits. I've let scary movies influence my understanding and
expectations in this area far too much of a quite un-Indigo kind of thing
- My constant battles with authority in grade school, and more in
high school, are legendary with my friends and family. I was always fair
toward and honest in my questioning of authority; however, my age and
role of student just didn't give me the right, in their eyes, to
question them as I did. At times I was, perhaps, too poignant and
cutting in my behavior. I've been developing ways to question still
while making my speech less threatening. When I want to correct
someone, I'm learning to
make my criticism more constructive by painting a vision of thought and
behavior that we both can buy into. However, I am still as sure and
firm in my convictions as I ever was I'm just finding
ways to be heard by others without triggering their defenses so quickly.
- Most days, I feel full of energy, that this energy is welling up
from an enormous, positive source from outside of me. This
energy feels as if it is given to me to fulfill a purpose I'm not yet aware of.
- As a child, I remember always wanting to be older, to be even an
old, learned gentleman. I'd pretend that I was older and would hang out
with older people, such as my teachers, quite a bit.
- Throughout school, I could learn some textbooks by intuition. Once
I got the "point" or theme of the author, even if I only read the
forward or the introduction, I could anticipate what he or she would say
and, even skipping parts of the text, be able to answer questions and
discuss the topic correctly, nearly all the time.
- I've found it important to develop a vocabulary with "bigger" or
stronger words to describe the complex and strongly felt emotions I
often feel. For instance, I'll use the word "avulsion" to describe my
being very strongly turned against something; to me what I'm feeling is
stronger that "fear" or "distaste" and even, in some ways, "hate."
Avulsion is a moral state of being against something and willingly
working to overcome that negative and hurtful things.
- I treasure brief moments where incredibly complex ideas or feelings
sweep over me and for an instant I fully understand the concept or
thoroughly feel the complex mesh of feelings. I call these lucid
moments. Alas, if I try to think about them when they happen, the
moment ends. So, I'm training myself to pause and hold these moments
suspended for as long as I can so that they make a greater imprint on
my mind. If I do this, the idea will often emerge later, pouring
out all at once for me to write down then or be reinforced for better
- I wonder if many Indigos see big moral choices in small events. For
instance, if I find a movie I'm watching morally or ethically offensive,
I will walk out on it and even leave my friends behind to finish
watching it. I feel so strongly that if I succumb to these "minor"
ethical decisions, I cannot hold myself up to bigger ones when the
chance comes. I'll even leave movies behind that display negative or
unhealthy images because I'm very careful to put positive,
life-affirming thoughts into my mind always.
- I often have the feeling of not wanting to have anything to do with
"human" rules or laws. For instance, at times I might have considered
studying law or business. However, these are human institutions with
human rules and doings. I'm more interested in God's laws or in
nature's standards and rules. I really feel put off by the idea my
life's work would be to operate under a human set of rules and laws.
- I fought studying what we were prescribed to read and study in both
high school and college, although I did read what I was expected to.
Since being out of college, my education has really blossomed into all
sorts of areas that I never would have thought I'd be interested in,
if I had
based my interests on their limited curriculum. However, I still challenge myself
mightily and will willingly learn any idea or concept of interest if I
cannot get it at first, I'll read introductory or peripheral materials
until I am ready to re-examine the original topic of interest.
- Wendy, I believe you wrote about the paranoia that "Big Brother" is
watching oneself. I had thought about the concept of "The Truman Show"
long before the movie came out, that my life was being watched or
filmed. In the movie, I found the coincidences that occurred, the
things that didn't connect (like the film crew in the elevator), and the
feeling of being watched just too creepily similar to my life. I can
give examples of Hollywood styled coincidences and disconnects, as I'm
sure we all can. Just an interesting side note hopefully.
- Wendy, you also wrote about co-creation. Lou Tice, of The Pacific
Institute, gives some terrific examples of co-creation and teaches many excellent
tools for co-creating, visualizing, and more in his seminars, which
are almost entirely concerned with co-creation (although he describes it
as visualization and affirmation). Maybe something people might want to
Thanks for the opportunity to share these these things.
~Brandon, 27 years old, -- Write to Brandon
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